Mood Ring [entries|friends|calendar] cece0116 © gawariel_design "My candle burns at both ends, it will not last the night. But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends, it gives a lovely light. Safe upon the solid rock the ugly houses stand. Come and see my shining palace built upon the sand.." "My Links." My Myspace Page my urbis page "Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord and the rivalry of your elements into oneness and melody. But how shall I, unless you yourselves be also the peacemakers, nay, the lovers of all your elements? Your reason and your passion ar the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either your sails or your rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction. Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing; And let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection, and like that phoenix rise above its own ashes. I would have you consider your judgment and your appetite even as you would two loved guests in your house. Surely you would not honour one guest above the other; for he who is more mindful of one loses the love and the faith of both. Among the hills, when you sit in the cool shade of the white poplars, sharing the peace and serenity of distant fields and meadows—then let your heart say in silence, "God rests in reason." And when the sotrm comes, and the mighty wind shakes the forest, and thunder and lightning proclaim the majesty of the sky,—then let your heart say in awe, "God moves in passion." And since you are a breath in God's sphere, and a leaf in God's forest, you too should rest in reason and move in passion." Style: S1 Coding: gawariel_design Graphics: Getty Images Photo's: Jose Luis Pelaez, Inc Brushes: Annika von Holdt and my own Fonts: Amaze, Georgia, Verdana [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Gonna slap a bitch!!!! [25/12/2006 @ 02:46] [ mood | fuming mad ] So guess, just guess, what my precious little sister has gone and done???.......She, the little vixen that she is, has gone and started dating a friend of the family who is 8, EIGHT, years older than her... did I mention she is only 16.  Ok gotta stop and breath for a moment.  It is completely wrong on so many levels.  And the worst part is my mother is letting it happen.  Her excuse is that she's afraid my sister will just run off with him if she forbids the relationship but in my opinion... to hell what stephanie think or wants, she is 16 who cares.  I'd lay her ass out and ground her for a good year giving her no leway what so ever to have any chance of escape and him, oh, oh, I'd take a baseball batt to his ass.  I wouldn't kill him, just hurt him enough to make him think twice about trying to see my sister.  I'm so fuming about this right now I'm visualizing some extreme physical harm I could do to him involving my car.  AARRRGHHH!!!  Did I mention that it is christmas day, well really early morning, what a lovely present, right??

Christmakha [19/12/2006 @ 05:13] [ mood | crappy ] So Christmas, other than halloween and my own birthday, is above and beyond my favorite holiday and no, not because I get presents but because I just love the season and I love to buy gifts for other people... its fun.  Anyways because of my hectic work schedule I can't go home until the day before christmas eve or christmas eve itself.  Lets just say I'me not happy about it.  I mean I have missed decorating the house and putting up the christmas tree, which is like a tradition for me and my mom, and ofcourse our annual christmas shopping for the family.  It doesn't seem like christmas without it.  It is kind of making me sad, well that and the fact that one of my great-grandmother's from my mom's side of the family, the one I used to spend time with every summer when I would go and live with my pawpaw and pete to get away, died a couple of days ago and I couldn't get off work to go to her funeral.  The fact that she is gone hasn't really hit me yet... I'm not looking forward to when it does either.  On top of that my step-dad's father is in the hospital now in the ICU.  It is going to be a very merry christmas indeed this year, I can already tell... yay.

It's been a while... [30/11/2006 @ 10:51] [ mood | tired ] so, yea I haven't posted in a long time, but at least now I have a good deal of things to talk about. I am really stoked about this friday. Yea, we're having a party at my house but that isn't the reason. My bestfriend, my non-blood sister, is coming into town friday and bringing her brother and his girlfriend Lacie with her. It's like my family is coming to visit, you know the family that you really like and get along with. She is seriously one of the only people who gets me. It's scary how close we are because will just be talking on the phone, which our conversations have resorted to because of the distance thing, and all of the sudden we'll say the same thing or get on the same topic or know what each other is thinking. She is seriously closer to me than my own family and knows a hell of a lot more about me than they do or ever will. And her brother micheal is one of my favorite people in the world, well when he's not pissing me off he is. He's a year younger than Mo and I but he acts like he's twenty five, mature beyond his years. He is just fucking awesome. His girlfriend is fun to. She keeps him in line. I cannot wait till they get here. We're all gonna get really, really drunk and just catch up on old times. On a somewhat different note when I went home for my whole twenty four hour thanksgiving holiday my mom and step-dad had been fighting a little more than usual but I didn't really think anything of it because I wasn't really there that long. A couple of days go by and I get a call from my sister, whose been crying. She was screaching into the phon that Barry, my step-dad, and my mom had been screaming at each other the night before about this job opportunity that my mom got offered. The position is one that she would be working at home about half the week and then traveling around Alabama the other half doing work for different companies. My mom wants to do it because she hates her job and also she'll get a slight pay raise. Barry, however, hates the idea for some ungodly reason. So my sister tells me this while having crying convulsions and then she just bursts out that Barry has told my mom he wants a divorce as soon as they sell the house. And he will make number three. Oh the drama of marriage, which is why I will never try for the annoying experience.

I'm in heart!!! [02/11/2006 @ 11:16] [ mood | relaxed ] I LUV this poem... absolutely obsessed with it actually. DESDE ADENTRO Es un lamento Es un grito sin lágrimas Desde adentro Desde el fondo de todo lo inevitable Desde el sollozo en espiral de espadas Desde la rama trágica de un silencio perfecto Desde el azul caído en los pies de la noche Desde la tempastad de un sueño solitario Desde ti y desde mí grito un lamento sin lágrimas diciendo: "¡Adios!" How I heart spanish poetry...by the by the author is Julia De Burgos if you are interested in reading more of her stuff.

Got Hugs? [27/09/2006 @ 13:15] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | James Blunt ] Today wasn't such a great... or at least it hasn't been so far but a look on the bright side... how could it get worse?? Right now all I really want is just a big, massive hug and an order of laughs for the side. I'm hoping the cigarette that is presently calling my name will help but doubt it cause seriously it has just been one of those days.

weekend from hell [25/09/2006 @ 15:49] [ mood | indescribable ] So I spent the last weekend at home and it was just full of tons of fun and giggles. Right when I walk through the door my mom is like... well I think me and your step dad are going to be getting a divorce soon. Now take in mind that this is my moms third marriage. I already know what she will do. She will either not talk about what's bothering her with him and let it fester until she just leaves him or she'll forgive him...like she did everyother man in her life, and just stay with him because she is afraid of being alone. I try to tell her to discuss her problems with him like an adult and if they decide if their still just to different and the fighting is just gonna keep getting worse that break it off like adults but nooooo, no one in my whole fuckin family wants to listen to some reason from me. And then to top everything off my bestfriend calls me, crying hysterically, because her ex stepfather, who is staying with her, her mom, her sister, and her sister's two kids, was caught fucking her sister(older sister). I mean her family is like my second family and this is just wrong in so many ways. I mean this man used to be their step-father and now he is having a relationship with one of his ex-wife's kids. Then after all of that her sister and the ex step-dad won't even let the family see her two kids who have been raised by the entire family. The situation is just completely fucked up on so many levels but you know what can you do about it. All I can do is be there for her. Hopefully this weekend will be better. All I can say is that after thursday I am going to want to get shitty cause I got a bad ass, kick you in the balls kind of test.

Blah, Blah, Blah [06/09/2006 @ 07:27] [ mood | awake ] [ music | My ceiling fan ] Can we just discuss how bad Russian History sucks. I mean don't get me wrong, I love the history of Russia. Especially Catherine the Great, cause she kicked ass, but my teacher assigned us this stupid textbook that isn't really a history book but a book of essays and pieces of people's journals on Russia. The journals aren't so bad but when the essays start going into deep detail back and forth about the Russian surfs all I'm really reading is the teacher off of charlie brown. It just makes my eyes twitch thinking about it. OMFG! The previews for the new movie The Covenant are just sexy. I really, really, really want to see it. Not only is the leading man just drop dead but the action scenes in the movie make my heart go pitter patter.--->the curse of the action junky

Poison of a Moment [05/09/2006 @ 02:58] The second hand plummets to death As the moments last eternal Engraved in the porcelain skin By my knife tipped nails Mark after mark Each a different poison From the bottle of disappointment Passed along through the generations Of misused and abused souls Killing slowly the pain of numbness Brought on by you The dream destroyer a.k.a. Society censored

[04/09/2006 @ 10:48] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | nada ] Holy fucking shit on a rye! My eyes feel like raisons right about now. The roomies and I decided we were gonna watch movies all night and didn't hit the sack till fivish. Now, a little more than five hours later, sleep becomes evasive. Don't you hate when you just can't seem to keep your eyes glued closed. I NEED SOME SNOOZE. So movie night consisted of three features picked out by audrey and cat... Making Grace, Spun, and The Dreamers. Making Grace was a documentary and Audrey freaked in the blockbuster about the tagline... "they had everything except sperm". Well needless to say she had to just rent it and after about twenty minutes of looking for sperm she fastforwarded to the end so we could see grace. Seriously best movie of the year. . . . kidding, kidding Spun was fucking ADD. S'about meth and the people controled by it. Watching the movie was like being on a fucking trip. Last but certainly not least was the dreamers which I saw when I was like sixteen. It's set in france and stars Michael Pitt who i ♥ because he's just so cute. I think it's his lips. Anyways, it's about twin brother and sister who live in Paris and an inocent american foriegn exchange they corrupt up the shitter. Lets just say these people are nude more than they are dressed. Its a big fucking orgy movie. Funny, Funny.

Surviving [03/09/2006 @ 19:47] I am A motherless child Forsaken for love abused Birthed to adulthood By a jealous lover’s leather fist. A silent girl Cold from wounds forgotten Left lonely, discarded From a father never known. An angst teen Numb of family dysfunctional Using to please, pleasing to suffer Pain was escape. I am Independent, Free Thinker, Eyes wide Open to the words, the pictures, the music Always present, always flowing Around me, through me giving emotions Never known, never felt before. A Writer of people, experiences, of life Present. A student, educated with wit Of knowledge, searching always for Past, future. A daughter of Forgiving but never forgetting. A symbol Of life everlasting, of second chances and Faith enduring. I am.

Remember, remember the fifth of november [03/09/2006 @ 19:02] [ mood | creative ] [ music | High, James Blunt ] Today was cleaning day. I got up at the very early hour of 11:30, having gone to bed seven hours before, and began to clean our party sodden house. Let me just tell you... fun. The floors were fucking nasty. Some one spilled some beer or something infront of the couch and dude it was sticky as hell. I had to put some very necissary strength into our lovely swifer mop to get the shit up and speaking of the couch. Some peoples stayed over at our house last night and this guy who will remain nameless and his woman of the moment decided to do the bump and grind on the couch we sit on. Can I just say ewwwwwwwww. They also left half of the clothes they were wearing here so I'm wondering if they both left the house completely topless cause that's kinda funny. Randomness V for Vendetta is just one of the best movies ever. Everytime I watch it I get chills and just feel in awe of the genius that is this movie. Remember remember the fifth of november gunpowder treason and plot I see no reason that the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot I always just get so inspired after watching it. The feeling is exhilarating, a rush of sorts.

Game Day!!! [02/09/2006 @ 20:54] [ mood | calm ] [ music | football game background noise ] Ramber Jambers (?), I think that's how you spell it, well anyways I went to eat there today with a few of my peeps while kickoff was happening. The cheeseburger was so so but damn their milkshakes are the shit!! We seriously drove around for thirty minutes, around campus, just to find a parking place to eat and we ended up having to park in some church parking lot which you had to have like a little yellow pass card thing to park there but because the game had started they weren't checking cars anymore. Winston, my friend whose car we rode in was freeking out all the way to the eating joint, worrying that her car was going to get towed while we were gone.... thankfully it wasn't but if it would have been, lets just say I would have fallen over laughing. So yesterday was like paty day were I got sloshed and met some people and just socialized with some friends. Tonight I'm going out with Christina, Clinton, Fairy, and maybe Jared and Winston to go see our friends Lee and Carly. Drinking, making fun of fairy, and just hanging out is on the agenda for tonight. I don't think I'm really going to get sloshed though because I really just don't feel like it. I guess we'll see as the night goes on. As I'm typing I'm watching the Auburn game... it's 26 to 14 in Auburn's favor right now. I normally wouldn't be watching it but Jared loves the game and we've all agreed to let him have his way with the tv. Ok this is going to be totally random but has anyone seen the mtv show on hoover, alabama yet??? I havn't but I'm not really trying to. My question is why the *HELL* would anyone want to watch a game about highschool football from alabama... the gist of it is jock dumbness, cheerhead drama, and a bunch of very annoying fights. Plus from personal experience, because I was born and raised in alabama, why would you put a show here. I don't hate alabama but seriously this place is no laguna beach... thank god! It's no realworld either. I'm not sure how well the show will do.

Devirginized [02/09/2006 @ 11:58] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | nada ] Wait, hold on, lets just take a moment to appreciate that my Live Journal cherry has now been popped. Thanks to some friends, who know who you are, at the little house party that my roomie Audrey and Sarah had, I was convinced that Live Journal was a must try so here I am dealing with a hangover from hell, well maybe like the first layer, and trying not to be sick writing my first entry. So today is the first Alabama game of the season and guess what??? I could really care less. It just gives me an excuse to mingle. I don't care about the game or the team for that matter because... I'm an Auburn fan, but other than that I'n not really all that into football. I know, I know the question is if I'm an Auburn fan why am I attending Alabama. Well first because I really like the school and second because I like to be complicated. It makes life enjoyable. I'm having some serious movie withdrawls right now. A friend of mine, Fairyn, borrowed my pride and prejudice movie months ago and she was supposed to bring it with her to Tuscaloosa when she came to visit this weekend but lo and behold she forgot it. Now if you really know me then you would know what kind of pride and prejudice freak I really am so not being able to watch the movie for months has killed me. I just finished reading this awesome book yesterday called "Twilight" by Stephanie Meyer. I recomend it to all who love reading about vampires. I swear I've been hooked since Brad Pitt's lovely role. Just to warn you though you will absolutely fall in love with Edward. And the sequel to the book is out which I have but haven't started reading yet because I'm taking a break from just entertainment teen books to read "The Picture of Dorian Grey" which I'm really excited about. See I have this whole cycle with reading. I love the classics... it's mostly what I read or atleast have been but after reading so many of them I have to take short breaks and just read books like teen books to let my brain rest for a little while. Then when my ticker is up to it again I go back to the classics. I'm trying to prepare myself to take on "War and Peace" soon. Oh, another good book I read the other day is called "The Harrowing". I can't remember who the author is on top of my head and I'm to lazy to get up and see but you should totally look it up. It's a ghost story and really really keeps you on the edge of your toes. Your probably thinking right about now..."How much does this chick read?" well the answer to that is a shit load. I'm obsessed with reading, always have been. When I was two I could recite my entire mother goose fairytales book because I would get my mom to read it to me so much. Literature is one of my biggest passion, definetly my longest. I have enough books in my possesion to fill around three large bookshelves and that's nothing to all the ones that I've read from the library or from friends or that I've lost along the years. What can I say... complete obsession.

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